Jason & Loni’s Blog

Well on Friday Jason and i went back to the doctor for a second round-I gues you would say-of the insemination process.  I can definately say it was a lot less painful this second time than the first.  I really think the first time it was just rushed through and not done properly-but, hey, I’m not the doctor, that is just what I think.  I really hope this time works.  they put me on the 100mg Clomid.  I could definately feel the side effects this month–hot flashes were coming on like cRaZy!!!!  But the whole ‘experience’ I guess you would say-went a lot smoother this time.  So, yeah, I really hope it works out this time.  Only God knows…..

OK–So I tried to warn you all(if there is anyone that reads this)-I am a HORRIBLE blogger!  I do believe my last post was in July.  Well one of my friends(I won’t say the name but it starts with an A and ends with manda =D) told me I needed to post a blog-I think she told me that a month ago=-and here I finally am–POSTING A NEW BLOG!!!  Exciting stuff, isn’t it?  Well–I don’t know where to begin.  Lets start with fast stuff.  My brother has a new girlfriend-she seems really nice.  I work all the time-it seems.  I love my job-most days.  My friends and family are AmAzInG!

Next, let’s see….As some of you know I have been on Clomid 50mg since liek March.  They made me ovulate and stuff but still no baby.  In July, my Doc tells me he thinks the next step is insemination.  I was like OK .  I asked how bad it hurt-he said I(me-Loni) went through the HSG test just fine and this is 10 times less painless than that.  Well I again was lik OK-the HSG didn’t hurt(I was more nervous because I kept reading on the net horrors other people went thru for theirs-and I was scared to death!!!).  I mhad a little cramping but nothing too horrible. 

So Doc puts me on Clomid again to boost my ovulation.  H tells me to start testing on day  12 to see if I m ovulating.  Well dya 12 is here and WOW-I aam vulation.  I call the Doc and we schedule an appointment the next day(a Saturday at 8AM–that means I had to get up at 6 AM on my day off–partially i worked OT that day–tell more later in blog).  The other doctor was the on call Doc for the weekend.  I was a little nervous–a different guy–I didn’t want to see a different guy–well I got over that and was OK.  So I went in-J did his thang and then we went into the room and the Doc did his thang–lol-and they had me lie there for a few minutes.  I was feeling some cramping-not gonna lie.  So like 5 minutes later they came back told me to put my pants back on and I was free to go.   I was still feeling crampy.  We went thru a drive thru and got some breakfast.  By that time–I was cramping BAD–so bad I couldn’t even eat.  Me-not being able to eat!!  I layed my seat down and we headed towards work.  We were a little closer to gville and I decided to sit up.  BADDECISION!  Crampin was even worse.  So I toughed it out and went into work-I am pretty dedicated like that =).  Well that only lasted an hour–I ONLY LASTED AN HOUR.  I had to go home-pain -too-much cramping….  Got home and layed down.  I woke up later and felt fine after that.  Next was the big part of waiting to test to see if it worked!!  I waited what seemed like an eternity.  The day  came for me to test.  I got the test out ad was like-this is it-this has to be it.  I was so nervous I couldn’t look.  Well I finally got the courage to and it was negative.  I was so bummed.  Then I was like maybe it is too early-I’ll test in a coouple of days–each one of them(I think 5 total) were the same results.  Then I had to call the Doc because my friend came(monthly one).  he told me we were going to do the same for that month(Sept).  Well I took Clomid and tested on day 12-no ovulation-day 13,14,15,16,17,18,19-same thing.  Well now I was a little concerned.  Called the Doc and he told me to keep testing and if there was still a negative respnse-we missed it and it would be too late to do anything.  Well I kept testing still no–well day 40 finally came and here comes my “friend” again. Called Doc and he decides we will to the insemination again for Oct and up my Clomid to 100mg.  So yeah, here I am day 8–myy mood swings vary(I am norally a passive person–these make me so aggressiv-it’s kind of scary) heat flashes have been a normal occourence since march when I first begun to take the med.  Tomorrow is day 9 last day for Clomid for htis month.  Then day 12 I get to start testoing again.  I am hoping this month things will happen correctly. 

I think I have bored you all long enough so I will let you all get back to more important things than my ramblings.  I will(try) to keep you all posted about the results…..

I just wanted to say I LOVE MY HUSBAND!

Thank you for being so wonderful!

Well today was ‘the test’ that I have been talking about for like a month.  I have been reading about it since I got the letter.  Originally I was just wanting to find out how to pronounce the name of the test but then I found all this infomation about it and had to read it all.  Well, there were mixed emotions about the test(which is a hysterosalpingogram or HSG) that I was reading about.  I read how there was just a little pinch and cramping to where they were in so much pain the could not walk for 30 minutes afterwards.  Well all of you that know me obviously know what info stuck with me-the horror stories.  I have been thinking how it was going to be so horrible-the worst pain I had been through..ect. Even when I went to the doctor for the rash(which turned out to be eczema-in case you didn’t know already) I heard stories.  The nurse that saw me asked if I wanted to take a shot or if I wanted a prescription for the medicine.  I advised her I was getting blood tests the next day and then today I was scheduled to get the HSG and asked if it would effect either test.  She told me that it would effect the blood test but not the HSG-so we decided prescription would be best and for me to start after the blood test.  Well anyways, she advised me that she had an HSG done before-and told me that it was horrible!  Well here I am thinking-Holy Cow-my nurse  was horrified so what am I going to do???? 

So yesterday I was so nervous I made myself sick.  I don’t think I was nervous about the pain–I was mostly nervous about what the results were going to be.  I was so afraid they were going to tell me that I was never going to be able to have children.  I actually think that is what has bothered me the most about the test-worrying about the results.  Jason and I want sooo much to have children of our own.  When it seems everyone around you seems to get pregnant just by ‘drinking water’ it is really frustrating.  Well anyways, Jason had gotten himself checked out before and everything came out fine.  So I was never given any test or anything like that-just medicine-so today was going to be the first one. 

So while at the hospital I sat there getting nausea thinking how the DR was going to tell me I will never beable to have children.  I asked if Jason could come in the room with me–of course the answer was no.  I went into the room.  I was asked to take off everything below the waist and asked to put on 2 gowns. the first was to go one way the 2nd was to go the other.  So I was so nervous I forgot to listen to which one faced the front and which one faced the back.  So I put them on the way I thought the radiology tech had said-of course I was wrong-so I put them on the right way.  I was just thinking ‘great I can’t even put a gown on right-how is the rest of this going to go.’  So after getting those wretched gowns on the right way I proceeded to walk into the X Ray room.  I was asked to lay on the table while the radiologist took an Xray of my bladder.  She advised me th DR will be there in a few moments and asked if I wanted something to read.  I already had my new book I got the other day(Chicken Soup for the Soul – Love Stories–which is awesome seeings as there is not a bad chicken soup book in my eyes) and started reading it.  I had just put it down as the DR came in.  Well here it was – time for this thing-ready or not!  They explained what they were going to do-even though I already knew it since I had brushed up on reading from the internet-I could have probably performed the thing myself but I decided to let the DR do it hisself.  So the procedure started and I was so cringing waiting for this horrible pain to begin.  The DR told me to get ready for some cramping-I felt a little pinch not too bad but I did feel it-then he told me one more cramp-this will be bigger.  Yeah, I will say I felt it a little more than the first ‘cramp’.  I didn’t make a noise(I didn’t want to sound like a wussy) but I DEFINATELY felt that last one!  No sooner had I felt the ‘cramp’ and thinking about how I felt it-the DR said he was all done.  I looked on the screen and recognized something I had seen a pic of while reading about the proceedure.  It WAS CLEAR!!  Doc told me the test went perfectly(whew!) and it looks good.  Nothing to be concerned about(whew again).  I asked him what next?  He told me and J to go ahead and have sex and if I am not pregnant call him when I start my period.  From there he will put me on Clomid and then I think it will be insemination.

I also wanted to say thank you for your prayers and concerns for today.  Please continue to pray for us.  Well I think that is my adventure with the HSG in a nutshell.  Tune in later for the next adventure in Loni Land…

sMoOcHeS

Ok so I know I said I was going to try to keep this current.  Well I guess I am slacking already.  Here Jason is-like 3 posts-and I only have one.  GOodneSs!  So hereis what has been going on with me the past week…..

We went to Wild Country on Friday night.  It was fun.  I enjoy hanging out with my buds but I sat there and pondered ‘how did I spend 3 nights a week for like 3 year in that place?!’  It is just a whole bunch of craziness in there!  I am not saying I will never go there again, because I will, but I just can’t believe I used to pretty much live in there!  Well then we went to the trivia night on Saturday-and yes the rumor is true–I did win the 50/50 on 1 ticket.  I don’t need to tell the story-as Jason has already done so.  I do love the trivia nights-even if we don’t win!  Sunday after J got back fronm the fire we did our normal Sundy ritual–wash clothes and go grocery shopping.  When we got home I was in the bathroom and J comes to the door and is like ‘sweetie-I think you will need to take me to the hospital’  Now if ANY of you know me you KNOW how much of a hypocondriac(sp?) I am.

So here I am thinking–is his blood sugar too high, is he having chest pains, did he cut himself-you name it it ran through my head.  Well I finally decided to ask why.  He prceeded to tell me that he thought he was taking his medicine but in fact he took one of my pills.  I just started cracking up!  J took an ESTROGEN PILL!!! 

I was so cracking up at this because-if any of you have seen the Longest Yard(with Adam Sandler) you will know what I am talking about-I immediately thought of that guard that was holding his breast and crying when his steriods were switched with estrogen pills.  Yeah–it was funny.  I told him he would be ok and just kept laughing.  I proceeded to tell my mom and my brother and they too cracked up.  Well I was on the computer later and J was like ‘sweetie–I lied to you.  I didn’t really take one of your pills.  Here is yours…’  So, yeah, he got me good.  But I am still laughing and telling everyone about it.  HILARIOUS I say, HILARIOUS!

Well here it is-Monday-I am on call.  WoOhoO! I put in like 5 time off sheets at work–all for times in July!  My first is a hlaf day tomorrow.  I have a rash that I normally get in the summer but this year it is HORRIBLE!  It won’t go away and now it’s spreading.  It’s not contagious otherwise everyone else around me would have it.  But I can’t stand this rash anymore so I need to see the Doc to figure out what it is.  My next day is 2hrs Wednesday morn.  I have to go to the hospital and get blood test.  Then I requested off for Tues because I get to get a Hysterosalpingogram.  This is where they will be shooting dye in ‘my area’ and looking at my tubes to make sure they are ok.  Then right there while looking at this ‘information’ the Doc will tell me what our next step is to us having children.  I am kind of scared of this test.  I know they said it was easy but I am just afraid of what the information is going to say.

The next days off are to drive J from the dentist.  He will be getting 6 teeth pulled in the middle of July.  Lucky for him…

Well I think that is all I am going to babble about for today.  Tune in tomorrow when I will let you know(hopefully) what this rash is.

sMoOcHeS

loni   =)

Hey this is Loni.  I actually just signed up to comment on a blog Amanda wrote.  Jason saw the sight and thought it was pretty cool.  I have never been really good at keeping diaries or journals so I may not be very dedicated on here.  But I will try.  Right now all we do is pretty much work and we are on clal for the ambulance.  We have to jam pack everything extra we need to do into Saturday and Sunday.  It gets busy and crazy at times but that is ok.  We are hoping that by September(my goal) we will be getting ready to move into our own place. 

Hopefully soon we will be able to have our own children.  We went to the doctor 2 weeks ago and it sounds like he is going to be really aggressive with the situation the next few months.  I hope so.  We want our own children so badly.  We have always wanted them.  So hopefully, maybe, possibly soon I will be writing a blog about being pregnant.  But until then we will just keep hoping and praying.  Well I don’t know what else to say on this first blog so I will quit rambling.